There really is no place like home, oh how I love home with my loud, crazy, forgetful, too busy, sit quietly, read a book, play ball/nurf guns in the house, but get a great snuggle in family. I guess more than no place like home there is no people like family.
We’ve been home now for 10 days.
Ten wonderful days
10 days to not pack another bag to go to the hospital for another nerve-wracking hold my breath and worry night.
10 days to get kids ready for school and do car line drop off.
10 days to sleep next to my husband.
10 days to sit around the dining room table and laugh and visit.
10 nights to check on my sleeping children.
10 nights to feel the weight of PS as she snuggles after nursing.
10 nights to not walk the halls of the hospital.
10 days to be the mommy.
Oh sure I have not yet resumed my normal, I have avoided going out, and when I do go out I leave PS with someone, I am a bit afraid of germs, and people trying to mess with her, touch and hold her. I had a friend come over to help take down the Christmas tree. I had another friend come over to wash floors with me. {I have some great friends} I still have friends dropping off meals for us, this is an unexpected nice treat for me. Eventually we will resume our ballet, run errands, miss naps, go to Chick~fil~a normal routine but until we do I am taking a laid back approach mostly sitting around snuggling and rocking the 2 girls at home.
Things have been eventful at home. We celebrated C and O and E’s birthdays this weekend. Cannot believe he is 18. He received mostly clothing for now, but really next year, and a great luggage set when he opened had us all laughing at him as he expressed exuberant delight over the suitcases stacked inside suitcases. Sweet Sixteen and not at all what I feared she would be like as I sat in my hospital room 16 years ago worrying about being the parent of a girl. I cannot even begin to understand how she got to be so old. E has had 8 years of constantly amazing us and showing how strong she really is. Both C and O had their birthdays while we were in the NICU, C chose his birthday dinner as a child of tradition he took Keith and they went to 5 guys, O has yet to choose her birthday dinner I think because she felt some of the responsibility at home while I was gone. She will choose soon. I was home for E’s birthday she chose me and her aunt to go to Panara Bread. I felt special since she has mostly chosen her 2 aunts, and never me.
I did not realize that Big Sister A had not really been around a nursing mom too much, until she started to obsess with my nursing. She thinks it is funny and likes to check on us while feeding. “momma is your b**bie in her mouth?” “yes dear she is nursing” “Hahahah that is silly.” That has become a multiple daily comment. She has greeted people who come over with the information of nursing. When the heart monitor guy showed up at our house she told him “My mommy has her b**bie in little PS’ mouth. He just looked at me and I replied “nursing is new to her” He smiled and said he had 2 little girls not to worry about it. Big Sister A has yet to try to nurse any of her dolls or stuffed friends I can only assume she will eventually.
When she is not obsessing about nursing she is constantly touching her. Every time she walks past her she has to stop and poke her or kiss her or rub her, PS is quite the tolerant child, only grunting every so often.
Time is marching on and yesterday was my due date so PS is officially not a negative number anymore {that was how she was referred to in the NICU} She no longer looks premie but like a newborn, she is gaining weight, an ounce a day last week, and sleeping for 4 plus hours at a time during the night.
What about you have you celebrated a birthday or noticed how fast time moves?
Go hug your kids they need your love
jen